Well Milan has been gone for 18 days. I miss him very much but am enjoying my time alone. It is so strange. My parents raised me to be self sufficient and independent. My husband wants me to depend on him more than I am comfortable with sometimes. To me I feel kinda lazy because he does so much around the house and for me. I was looking at Oprah the other day and Lance Armstrong's ex-wife Kristen was on there talking about how their marriage failed.
A lot of what she says sounded like a little alarm bell for me. My husband personality is so dominating that in order to keep the peace and keep him happy a lot of things go his way. I have stood up for what I have wanted sometimes but I have to fight harder than I like for it to happen. Our biggest thing is something I call "his timetable". This is because what he wants has to happen when he wants it to happen. Sometimes we have been in agreement, sometimes I have barely been consulted. The job change thing is one of those timetable things. I don't mind the change. What I minded is that we really were not finacialy prepared for it. I do belive that God is keeping us covered and I am filled with gratude for His grace.
I guess my other thing is that I am praying so hard that we have found the house that we want to buy. I am so ready to move. The street I live on now is slowly becoming like the street I grew up on. Too many folks hanging on the corner buying and selling drugs. The biggest dopeman on the westside throws a block party every August just a couple blocks from my house. I hope to miss out on that this year. So if anyone reads this please pray for us to be able to sell our current house and move to the other house soon.
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I hope you find the balance and then the strength to deal with all the situations you describe in this post. This is life, we all have to deal with decisions and situations. Pray is essential! try to smile and have a great day
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